I was writing additional paragraphs to my previous entry when I accidentally clicked some button while I was looking for certain function to apply. And I pressed backspace and puff, it's gone! Oh well, guess I better create a brand new entry for what I wanted to jot.

I was saying I noticed that I too have new year's resolution like everybody else, only that it's a disguise in shopping list form. So what do I want to OWN most? Please note the word 'own', cause it means you guys who read this have a part in this too, well, you could buy them for me... bwahahahahaha

1. Suzuki Swift (new model) - Although I don't expect it comes as a gift unless if I won any contest lah, whatever pun I'll still accept public generosity. *wink*

2. Projection Alarm Clock - Loveeee the cool funky one. The one with lights ala disco, colourful, I like! And of course the one that rings to wake me up. Even better with radio.

3. External HD - I was aiming for Sony VAIO 250Gb because I saw one sold in eBay for £80, I didn't know the retail price was triple the money. And I didn't know what was wrong with the £80 price tag, whether it was faulty or without warranty or stolen goods.. Now I don't mind the brand but it has to be 200Gb and above. 80Gb is permissable if it's really really really cheap like RM50 je ke hahaha!!

Stuff I don't yearn for that much, and might be pocket-burn proof.

4. PowerBook - OK this is as expensive la jugak kan but again, takde la perlu sangat to have it. My cokia Twinhead is still strong and macho.

5. A pet - I'd love to have a dog but I know nanti penat aku nak samak everytime after touching him, penat samak everything he licked plak tu. So my option's narrowed down to cat, hamster or gerbil, parrot, tiger cub, monkey.. no snakes or iguanas please.

6. 2006 diary - Anyone? Diary company yang lebih tu, preferably yang cun punye la..

7. Earrings - Which suit my crooked look hahaha, wanted to buy anting-anting but so far haven't met with one that represents my personality. Agak sick of wearing stubs want a wind of change.

8. Island vacation - Sigh

9. New mobile - Currently eyeing Motorola PEBL. Pemalas kan motorola ni nak mengeja?

So my hidden new year's resolutions? In order to 'own' those mentioned on my own efforts, I have to..

• Secure a job. Maybe 2 jobs, nak kaye cepat kan?
• Lead a healthy living, go to gym if affordable. Logic: nak ngurat laki kaye whom usually muka and bodylistik.
• Change of attitude. Kena lah rajin and determined to meet your own goals kan?
• Be positive always. Negative vibes bring you to nowhere, tak maju.

Sekian.

It's new year again. Time flies like nobody's business, I can't even remember what did I do this moment last year. But I think I did sort of have some new year's resolutions, not written though.. or wait a second, let me check...

Damn, I started blogdrive in March 2005. Now I'm intrigued to know what really happened last year.. I guess selective amnesia is possible, because honestly I don't remember what happened.

One thing for sure though, I was jobless. Ah ah ah. Last year, this year hopefully not next year. Come 2006, give me new hope and please, give me a life! A son? Adakah mungkin?!

This year new year, I don't feel anything, no resolution, no urge to celebrate it, no nothing. It's like a dead fish. However, I did go to seafood dinner besar-besaran with my mom and Hasna and her parents. Burppp! Shalina, your turn will come, patience is virtue child, patience is virtue... Ah ah ah.

Check out gambar MJ's wedding + gadis-gadis mekar berposing disekitar masjid di..

...sini http://kowala.fotopages.com

Akhir kata, Happy New Year everybody!!

Been wondering, kenapa kan, orang-orang jahat dan orang-orang yang keji ni kan, hidup senang lenang, everything is easy peasy lemon squeazy for them. Nak duit? Berkoyan-koyan jatuh atas riba. Nak ape, cakap je, petik jari semua pun dapat. What about orang yang teraniaya? Well I have my past sins la kan, tapi tudia, bertimbun-timbun balasan aku terima at one time, suffocating..hkkttt..khtt.. no.. khhttt..air..

"Tuhan sayang ko lagi tu..", said Sakina.

Hmmmm... I guess it's true. Just hope I don't go blind, please God please cure my eyes, I am scared of living in the dark...

I am stranded once again. Banjir teruk siot. Bala Tuhan ke ape? Shahidan nye pasal la ni.

Aku amat bohsan ngn blog aku ini. Takde perasaan nak continue.

I recommend watching 'Rock', the malay movie. Cause it rocks hard! Plot, act, humour, story and originality are much more better than our over rated PGL or Puteri Gunung Ledang in full although they're from different genres. Confirm kene kutuk kaw-kaw kalo aku cakap camni, but heck, 'Rock' best giler ok, not typical at all. I like.

However, goofs are unavoidable lah, budget quite murah la the movie (I assumed), but! I must say picture quality is teramat la cantik although it's still very far from PGL's standard to compare. For instance, lipsynching tak accurate, wig tu nampak sangat lah wig cheap-skate, prop setting tak appropriate in certain scenes, poor continuity, etc. Tapi.. they're all excusable lah kan since its genre is comedy.

Akhir kata, majulah rock untuk negara.

Selamat Hari Raya!!! Sorry been gone so long sebab aku stranded kat tempat yg tak civillized ini, tensi beta.. No internet, no cyber cafes. ulu siot!! Since adalah tak logik aku nak email korang personally nak wish selamat hari raye, so wish kat sini je la boleh? Please trust me, internet yg aku gune skang ni amat mencabar zahir dan batin aku, aku tanak campak PC library ni please! So.. Selamat Raye korang, Maaf Zahir dan Batin ek. 0-0 I'll keep you guys updated on my returning date hmmkay noks?! SELAMAT HARI RAYE again! weeehooo raye!

I watched 'Howl's Moving Castle' today (lembap ke aku?). I think I'm becoming jiwang, sebab throughout the movie rase nak naaaaaaangis je! It's not that ada orang mati ke ape ke, it's just an animation pun. But.. don't know. PMS most likely. That's one thing cool about being female, we always have an excuse for being too emotional. Kalau laki, dah selamat korang kena cop gay! Zasssttt!

To review the movie (English version eh ni), my first impression was "Gile tak kena suara Christian Bale for the lead role - Howl". Howl is a pretty boy, macho lah at times, especially when he said "Now I have something to protect, and it's you!", then he flew away. Flew?? you said, err well that, you have to watch the movie lah kan. Not going to spoil it. Back to the subject, mana kena weh Christian Bale suara nak ala-ala Batman yg body forever berketul-ketul je, and Howl tu sekeping (takde la sekeping anorexic) and agak pretty for a man. How macho can Jap's anime be pon?

The rest was beautiful. Too beautiful rase nak nangis (nangis lagi). Tak jadi la nak review, my emotion is too unstable to be reminded of that movie. *Sob*

My last word, seriously, to those who haven't watched it, go and watch it if you liked Spirited Away (same director).

New photos uploaded. Check it out here:

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I went for a London trip few days ago, konon banyak la agenda aku nak pegi sana but the main reason was to meet up with anak-anak Putas en Europa tour group yg diketuai oleh Foxymophandlemama. It's amazing how I find the trip is the best one I've had, tapi padahal aku selalu dah pegi sana dan tak penah la rase London tu best. I guess, the crowd you're hanging out with definitely makes a whole lot of difference dan akan mempengaruhi kebestan sesuatu vacation itu.

I'm a tank filled with wrath now. Shoot me, I'll explode and we all shall die. Leave me I might explode myself, but I'll die alone. Pat me, it might wash away my wrath and nobody will die.

I think I've gone cuckoo over this whole looking for job stuff. And today I have done the craziest thing ever in my entire life (I've been crazy all this while). Take a look at my cover letter for a job application to the renowned Ad Agency in the world, Ogilvy & Mather. And tell me have I got balls or I'm plain stupid.

Dear hiring manager,

I am writing this because I really love and want to work at one of the biggest Ad Agencies in the world - Ogilvy & Mather.

I have graduated from B***** University in 2004 and we just had our graduation day held in last July. And to date, I haven't been offered any permanent roles in any companies yet, only a few freelance jobs. I'm wondering why, probably because the way I write my cover letter is way too harsh or informal.

However, in my humble opinion, normal is boring and un-creative. That does not mean I don't respect you in any ways, I do. I just think that there are too much stress in your daily job already and you deserve to loosen up a bit. Please take a look at my CV (attached), and I hope you will like what you see or at least consider to like it.

Thank you very very much.

Regards,
***** *********

P/S: Having read it again and again, I think I am plain stupid. I hope they won't regard this as prank of any kind. To stay on a positive side, the last time I did something like this (but not as extreme), it landed me a job interview with one of the coolest TV station in Malaysia. So... *fingers crossed*